Τρίτη, 12 Ιανουαρίου 2010
You can't sleep again.Music can't destract you right now...You think of random things.Then memories long buried in the back of your mind rise again...You can't help yourself.Once again you go down that path..
So,you made all the possible wrong choices.Wrong places,wrong people,wrong you.Call it naivity or whatever you want.It won't change the past.But you still had the strength to put an end to it.To walk away.And you did.You moved on with your life.But this time you knew.This time you didn't make the same mistakes.You always thought that someone must be a fool to make the same mistake twice.You got youself a new life.Better places,better people,better you.
And then they're trying to pull you back in.Digging up memories of a past full of lies and betrayal.There is a reason some things should stay in the past.You know that.They don't.They still lie and betray.They still hurt and they still mess up your life.
And then you wonder...What did I ever do to deserve this?But that is the wrong question.You didn't do anything.All you wanted was a life.All you want is peace of mind.
So,you wonder again...Why me?But again it is not the right question.You see you are not the only victim.It may seem so because most of the others can't see they are just mean.Or even evil.
At last you wonder...Why at all?That is the right question and there can be a million right answers...Pathetic,sad,lifeless,mean,inhumane,little people...People?Nah...maybe animals is the right word...
You don't feel sad about youself anymore.You are not one of them.You never were.Never will be.
Peaceful and quiet now you fall asleep...And deep down you know.Your wounds have healed.